Depression is a mood disorder that causes a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest. Also called major depression, major depressive disorder or clinical depression, it affects how you feel, think and behave and can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems. You may have trouble doing normal day-to-day activities, and depression may make you feel as if life isn't worth living. — Mayo Clinic This film documents my own hassles of day-to-day depression and anxiety, terror and humiliation. Recorded on Saturday, April 11, 2015. — Jonathan Harnisch #HARNISCHFILM NYU FILM | MENTAL HEALTH ADVOCATE | SCHIZOPHRENIA SPECTRUM | AUTHOR | ARTIST | BLOGGER | PODCAST HOST | PATENT HOLDER | HEDGE FUND MANAGER | FILM & TV PRODUCER | MUSICIAN
Jonathan Harnisch: From today's film footage out and about Saturday, April 11, 2015.
There are no words to describe this video podcast, so I suppose it's best not to over think it. I’m not quite sure why, but Chinese writer and inventor Lin Yutang comes to mind when describing today’s daily video documentation on the road again as, noted author of Alibiography and Sex, Drugs, and Schizophrenia, filmmaker, and moreover life documentarian, since age 11 in 1987, Jonathan Harnisch (hey, that’s me!) ventures out and about around the town of Corrales, New Mexico where he continues to seek meaning and purpose in life, living with schizophrenia and Tourette’s syndrome, in particular, referring to the Ancient Greek aphorism "know thyself.” Simply spend the afternoon with Jonathan Harnisch on a typical positive day. Kurt Vonnegut wrote, “To whom it may concern: It is springtime. It is late afternoon.” To quote Yutang, “If you can spend a perfectly useless afternoon in a perfectly useless manner, you have learned how to live.” Jonathan accomplishes this and more in this partly educational and partly just staying in the now sort of film. Thank you all for tuning in and your continued support and love living with mental illness, rather comorbid mental health conditions as I recover. Life can be tough, and so can recovery. Sometimes we just have to let go and stay in the moment, presenting a half hour of hanging out, hoping you hang out with me. As always, there are more movies to come. Again, thank you. I have a lot to be grateful for, including you, which is why I publish these film dailies as I have been for over 5 years now, namely on Vimeo and my podcast currently called Schizophrenia Raw on iTunes.
Jonathan Harnisch responds to an emotional challenge instead of to the subtle ebb and flow facing the truth and consequences of his own damaging responses to PTSD and intimate interpersonal relationships. People with PTSD are different than “normal” folk as they lose relationships and interest in the things they used to enjoy, feeling irritated and getting mad easily. There are particularly many difficulties when anniversaries come around. On the road from therapy to thrift shop, Jonathan begins to recognize and seek help regarding the fact that a person with PTSD often does not notice their own symptoms or the consequences of getting mad but others do see it. Dealing with the consequences puts a great burden on the body and mind. Harnisch begins to wade back into what he refers to as the usual standard podcast where mental illness and its devastating consequences of suffering and stress, which affects all people, are discussed candidly. This video podcast was recorded on Thursday, April 9, 2015.
Another brief lunch break on the road.
From the archive-vault, I am pleased to feature this 30 second film TBT 2014 Film Trailer Behind the Wheel.
Hi friends and fans! Biscuit bag it; flag it, blip, bam, and boom! Nonsense, at first, I wasn’t going to post this video, but I had the time and the space, the room to groom and take a broom to this series of clips and stir up the pot a bit and happy to break the fear and now happy to present this archival piece, Symptomatica. Interesting fact: Do you know what PCTS means? Porphyria. Cutanea. Tarda. Symptomatica. Nonetheless, this film has little to do with that, but I come back on this joint, from the past, posted on a #TBT: Throwback Thursday, 2 April 2015, so check it out! Sometimes our lives have to be completely shaken up, changed, and rearranged to relocate us to the place we’re meant to be. And so, this is a demo film unreleased until now while I had a few minutes to edit slightly out of sync and sped up without being fed up, so heads up as I’d documented the day, beginning with a brief dissociations outside the real world through a rather manic Monday on a Friday. Part 2 documents the recording of a melancholic writing session from Second Alibi: The Banality of Life, the prequel or sequel to Jonathan Harnisch: An Alibiography. Shot by Jonathan Harnisch (voila, c’estmoi) on the 13th of July 2014, from the film archive vault at Harnisch Productions.
Pump up your speakers! When I get in my car, I want to drive until I find what I’m looking for. Maybe it’s purpose or maybe it’s a new start or maybe it’s just a sky with unclouded stars.